How time flies? It is hard to count from day to day, you will feel the time really pass too slow. Too long for you to grow up. This was taken when I was still at the age of below kindergarten I guess? I hardly smile since even when I was still the kids. A cool face I always got of my picture.
As a kids, I do wished that I can grow up as fast as possible, go beyond the family, I just can't wait to leave the home and to show my progress. Didn't think of Penang, KL/Selangor is actually my preference for my university life, not too far yet still a distance from home. Well, there are always unpredictable happen around us. I have traveled further after that and couldn't return somehow.
After more than two years in Penang, finally I am in Selangor to fulfill my wishlist, I have applied for my internship life at here. I have always avoid to stay home too long, except during the holiday, or else I will feel the tiredness at home and feel reluctant. Yet, this semester at least during the internship I can come home often over the weekend, such a frequent that I have not do so for these few years.
What make the difference was this period I have come across a lot of faces that I have long missed out since after form five? There are once close friends of mine but now, either become a stranger of mine, or hardly recognize me when face to face (I doubted did I changed so much?), or just can smile and nothing else, the best is still keep the same, talk as the lost time never exist.
All and all are part of the journey in life, so just accept it whatever form it comes. It teaches me how to appreciate those besides you now.
This kids, the brother and the sister never fails to remind me of my childhood,
they always come to my shop to find my parents.
Or simply just come and sit down until the mum come and find the kids.
It happened 18 years ago, I used to cross over to their shop, do anything just to kill the time, asked some sweets from my godmother (a worker there but I have forgotten even her face >.<), or watch some video tape there. Hide in here and there until my dad come over and pick me home. I did, run in all the direction that I can walk to.
Daddy always like to tell: Once, the night market is right in front of the shop, I am alone, hanging around. Customer come over to the shop said, there is a Mat Salleh girl get lost in the night market. (as if i was once look like one as the color of hair aren't dark enough). After listen to the description, he realized that the kids is his daughter me.
Tonnes of stupid/crazy/ unbelievable story can listen from the oldies. There are even those never appear in my memories (obviously beyond my brain start to develop I guess? ). To them, you are always the kids that never grown up. I tried to listen, some I did tell my feeling, yet there are others that I can only listen but keep the comment in heart, to remind myself not to step on it.
Sometimes, if you do realized, every action you did in life will give some changes to you and the others, whether it is good or bad, people will judge it accordingly. There is some although they do not tell, but they remember it vividly in mind, which it may explode soon or later.
As well as if nothing has happened seven years ago, I won't be who I am today. I have been through the up and down. Every single moment is appreciated.
Realized another thing in life, people come and go, not only that because of the fate between us, but also whether you want to maintain the relationship, as well as whether the crossover circle between us become smaller, even NON-EXISTENCE. Feel the shit, but I do wish at least one day we meet, we can smile to each other at least.
How much is the six years-gap counts? I believe I did smile more and learn how to appreciate, as well as learning the giving and accepting in life, and never stop to challenge myself when the opportunity is there, although I am still lacking of confidence on myself, i believe tomorrow will be a better day with people and smile. Reading more, imagine more, and trying to share out more love to people. So much that even I could not remember how much is it had change. I do missed the childhood life, but appreciate also how the journey changed me. And thanks for everyone that come across, whom trusted me, and also trusted by me. My life would not be so colorful without all of your existence. One thing that never change, the pimples still exist on the face and never want to vanish. Well, as the law of appreciation, I will just treat it as the prove of I am still young. (^--^) v
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