Simple Life: Looking forward! not backward!

Sometimes, I do agree with the sentence my teacher used to mention in the class: " Being not good in memorizing is a good thing, you will be a happier person. "

Always, I have thought that I am really bad in that, bad in memorize anything especially in the textbook and so I always get that sentence too as when I faced problem.

I love Maths, love Physics, love all those that I can calculate by logic. Preferring those calculations than memorizing stuffs even today. Yea, I have got my C+ since the first year courses for those related to Biology. But never fails to get an A/A- for the calculations. So that I did proud of myself, cheating that It is my talent and another is my weakness. But I care so much for the weaknesses I do have, there is how I try to change. So day by day it passes, finally, i got it overcome a little by another.

But what does it mean for a better memorizing power? The loss of happiness? I hope it doesn't.

Life is always unpredictable. I have never imagine to work anything related to food, but I am here, Third Year of Food Technology life having her internship now. I only know how to fried rice until I was Form 6. LOL..

If looking even further, I have never imagine of leaving Melaka, my hometown to another place or city for living. But life is always out of planning, when the right timing, the chances come.

I used to be a supportive team member, being introvert and lack of confident, I won't be the main character of the show. Once, I thought I will be forever like that, just to be ordinary and that's it.

Until one day, something had change, I have never imagine that could be real. But never it could be happening, I am knowing he existence just because of his brother and a junior of mine. However, the situation seems to be too real until I believe it is true, I almost believe every girl have her own love story.

Whatever happening in the middle is not really important now. No, I am cheating myself, again and again. I mind. I always do. Anything that happening to him.

For once, I kept telling myself to be strong, I need to be strong, for those happen in the family, for those who had hurt me. But until then I have come across for so long, I try to learn to appreciate, each and every relationship that I could hold, tight or loose would have to depends on how strong I can hold on.

Although it might be clearly seen that I am still a supportive team member, there were still time that people thought I am the main character, for them or just for the situation. That is how I learn things, everyone has got their own value to be appreciate. I do appreciate those that willing to share with me their feeling, opinions and so on, whom to give me sincere advice when see me walking on the wrong track, to pull me back to the right one.

There is somehow ways that never get to return, anyway lessons are to be learn to become a stronger man. Well, I start to recall back those moments too. The last event that we did join together before I graduated. Trying to guess what is your thinking that time and now.

Time have changed us all, including the best friendship that I first thought it will never end. But it did, not end yet but the quality had change to a taste that I don't like.

Maybe, I was really holding too much, I thought my 100% hardship will get a return, but never thought that people simply don't need that, and even it could be a burden. I might be the one as well whom cracked the link between us. Day after that, I walk carefully, watching it steps by steps. Lesson gained. But I do hope I am still the girl, the innocence one.

Life cannot turn back! Looking forward, is because of each and everyone's story that give me lesson, lead me to where I am today.

I did told a friend, my wish is very simple, I am just looking forward to a simple life that I need not to worry for money and live happily. Which both in the moments are well enjoying, of course, there need some complains and challenges to make you appreciate them all. So, I enjoy complain again and again although it don't really enter the brain. That is how woman talks more than guys for triple right?

Those who are really care, actually deep in the heart, which I don't know how to express them out.