First time it was the skin peeled off of my palm, when I worked as a croupier/ dealer in the casino. Not sure is because of the germs that spread over on the tables that I worked, or the hand sanitizer that I am allergic to the chemical used. Initially I found that the table are dirty the space we used to count the money chips, however since we had been training with the speed and the habit is hard to change. So, every break to the resting room I will wash my hands thoroughly following the exact hand washing steps that we learn. But sooner, the skin start to peel off on the palm, and I tried for a few lotion it cannot stop the dehydration of the skin.
Now the image I still left on the brain is the difficulties that I have faced when trying to clip the money chips by the usual techniques we used, or even to take out the cards from the machine, into a stage that found out by the supervisor. Finally, after approximately a month time the skin got better and I can work as normal by trying to reduce the sanitizer and use the lotion that emphasize on retain moisture on the skin.
But after I quit the job, a few months later when I was in my first year of degree, the skin peeled off again. I still can remember Elizabeth's frightened face emotion when see how severe it is although I do not think that she remembers that.
Well, nothing happened after recover, and I have forgotten those until in year 2013, when I had my internship I saw the same hand sanitizer brand again, not sure exactly the same or I just mistakenly thought it is. And this is another must to clean our hands again and again for the food safety practices in the factory. So got to follow that, then also cleaning the dishes again and again after each kitchen trials.
Also blame to my bad habit of laying my hands on the table, at the same posture and place, the skin starts to shows some symptoms again. Not on the palm this time but the elbow, where it reminds me that I have to really be aware of any bad habit on the daily life. I am facing the skin allergic until today, almost half a year only it slowly turn better, hopefully it will leave me soon. At least most of the place is recovered and the skin regrowth. (I am just joke around with it as the changing skin of a snake. )
But when writing until this, it reminds me of from the last time and even now, the lazy posture that I used to have is already make my backbone misplace again and again, turn to one side and the more easily can be seen is until now also still a serious hunchbacked.
Me, around the age of 15
Even until now, I am still can be seen clearly of the hunchback.
There is why, whenever I am aware of a mistake, I will try to correct it in the beginning, once the shape of the outline has been formed, it would be really hard to change, which it would be much harder than you change it in the early stage. It takes years for me to be change the habit and yet not fully recovered. (probably due to myself not really push myself for the change too. )
Everyone know that there is nothing is perfect in this world, but for that excuse shall we just let it be or try to change to a better one? Some do not realize what they are lacking of, they just think that they are perfect in that way; some enjoy and showing it in their perspective view of life; some trying hard and looking for any opportunity to make them a better one.
No one can give an exact answer towards that even you know what should be done clearly, but not everyone will take action on it. Well, it might be seem negligible at the beginning, but it really counts even a milli- mistakes at the beginning.
Just imagine it as the bridge that are build from the two end. Even with just a 0.1 degree of mistakes it will not meet at the middle. Somewhere I learnt via Physics? I am not sure though, some said there is not a exact way of interpretation. There is thousands of views that can be found from different view. Well, to make life easier, that would be my choice of leading my way.
Anyway, a lazy morning that I failed to push myself to study again.
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