The world is so big I don't get why I am here waiting for an answer like this. More than 5 years it has passed. And I thought I have got the true answer end of last semester life. You told me that you have fallen in love with another girl. I don't know why it is not anymore. But as far as I am concerned, I am just a sister and that's it. Perhaps.
First thing is of course at the beginning mentioned, your reactions. A reply is far more than enough for the distance between to get nearer, but you didn't. Although I am always try to be available whenever your finding. Now, I will still do the same, but with the stand of sister maybe.
Life had been become peaceful after you get me the clear answer half a year ago. Enjoyed the craziness of myself busy with all tonnes of activities and all crazy friends that I have them here, enjoyed travelling around the country and out of the country with different friends learn to see the world more widely experience the local places, enjoyed as simple as staying home by doing the same job and yeah have to agreed sometimes it is bored to be home, enjoyed student life as I am maybe leaving again sooner or later, enjoyed every moment I had with people around and sometimes alone to listen to myself deep from the heart.
You are once to be my mindset motivator, Motivates myself for strikes for the better me, A catalyst for me to keep awake and study for striking a better result, A medicine for me to withstand the long journey of marathon and improve my performance, A reason for me to go home often at least the place we had the most memories.
But I know I can't be dependent like this. I have forced myself to be a much independent one, leaving home country to get myself move forward. I used to rely on one or two friends by sticking them anywhere I go, and now I learned to have myself going out occasionally, watching movie alone, taking dinner alone, therefore I have made myself adapt the loneliness, therefore I become homesick lesser, not feeling to go home, to escape from the place. I know I am trying to hide and it is not the way to solution but I believes time can cure everything, whatever is the result.
You are once to be my mindset motivator, Motivates myself for strikes for the better me, A catalyst for me to keep awake and study for striking a better result, A medicine for me to withstand the long journey of marathon and improve my performance, A reason for me to go home often at least the place we had the most memories.
But I know I can't be dependent like this. I have forced myself to be a much independent one, leaving home country to get myself move forward. I used to rely on one or two friends by sticking them anywhere I go, and now I learned to have myself going out occasionally, watching movie alone, taking dinner alone, therefore I have made myself adapt the loneliness, therefore I become homesick lesser, not feeling to go home, to escape from the place. I know I am trying to hide and it is not the way to solution but I believes time can cure everything, whatever is the result.
Nothing to offense, nothing to blame. I believe you can still come back to me and treat me as your dear, I will did the same too. Sometimes maybe I will be confused or think too far. Anyway, I will try to control it from now and ever. Unless time change me and you again and if we really decided to be together again.
At the same time, sincere pray from me for you to be happy always. Always LOVE from me. =D
Miss the innocent time of the last time me and thanks for being my special friend for so long. I appreciate it.
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